Saturday, May 20, 2006
Was reading a blog something about disappoint starts from expectation(something like that).Before reading that blog, i didnt koe wat was the main cause of my 'disappointment'. And now, i koe.I guess i m just expecting too much from the people around me.So,i feel that i m always surrounded by disappoints.
For now, i think flirting around is such an easy job cause u koe when u flirt,u dont expect anything frm the person u r flirting with;relationships are just so hard to handle at times..since i m with you,obviously i will expect something from you.If in the 1st place i dont expect anything from you,why do you think i gone thru' so much just to be with you?
I have so much to say and yet i don't dare.Sometimes i just wonder wat the heck is this blog doing here when i onli share pictures of the hamster.I don't like the feeling to onli share things that you love to hear and keeping the things that you don't like to listen inside me.There will onli be 2 outcome.
1, you will leave one day thinking that we have not put in any effort into the relationship.
2,I will die of 抑郁症 and end up with some chronic diesease one dae.
Things said are meant to be said but left undone?
Please give me something new.
cowie at 10:17 PM
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at 5/22/2006 8:32 PM
Jer said... its really difficult not to have expectations of your love ones. but i guess it was simplier for me coz b set the record straight even b4 we were tgt.
of coz, as time goes by.. expectations will build. u just gotta keep them in check n ask yourself if u have the right to expect tis n tat, if it is too much to ask.
i know how u feel.. sometimes i dont dare to bring things up w b too, coz i'm afraid tat b will misinterpret it, or get angry.
but i guess its good to be open to one another. then we'll understand each other better. i'm still working on it too-
at 5/23/2006 9:23 AM
said... For a long period of time,i keep telling myself i have no right to ask for anything..but like wat u said,as time goes by,expectations will grow and that's when i m always frustrated.
I think i just need to constantly remind myself: I have no rights to anything.